How can we say: we love God, but live in lust?

I have been through my hypocritical stage, where I talk about God in the open; but behind closed doors, I lived differently...And that life I lived, was through fornication...I wanted to feel the closeness of my man and knowing God hates fornication...Since fornication is a sin, opposite to what God wants: which is marriage before sex...All I saw at that moment of lust, was fulfilling my lustfulness...Not seeing the after effects, of death to my once innocent relationship...After the 8 seconds of orgasm was up, our respect for one another changed...I became possessive and jealous...While he became secretive and distrusting...The once: I'm guessing who you are, became: a disgust to whom we became to one another...Jesus said: Where do all the fights and quarrels among you come from? They come from your desires for pleasure, which are constantly fighting within you. You want things, but you can not have them, so you are ready to kill; you strongly desire things, but you can not get them, so you quarrel and fight. You do not have what you want because you don't ask God for it. And when you ask, you don't receive it, because your motives are bad. Unfaithful people! Don't you know that to be the world's friend means to be God's enemy? If you want to be the world's friend, you make yourself God's enemy-James 4:1-4...So in conclusion: Sin=Death, not death to our bodies per se; but to the purity in spirit...So I rather wait and let God, than to let any man, cause my spirit to not wait and perish; due to sin...I pray this blog is a blessing.